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Sometimes life seems too quiet
06 April 2005 @ 07:00 am
there's a strange guy in my house.... for Rose of course but I have no idea who he is. It kinda freaks me out.
Sometimes life seems too quiet
19 March 2005 @ 01:15 am
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Sometimes life seems too quiet
19 March 2005 @ 12:57 am
It's one am and I am bored.... This is my life. Yay.
Current Mood: boredbored
Sometimes life seems too quiet
18 March 2005 @ 10:08 am
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Extraversion (49%) medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.
Neuroticism (64%) moderately high which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Psychoticism (43%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense of your own individual development (martyr complex).
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Sometimes life seems too quiet
17 March 2005 @ 03:57 pm
new layouts posted in slash_baby and slash_tiger with icons included. Slash_baby's journal is Trish Stratus while Slash_tiger's is with people... O.o
Sometimes life seems too quiet
15 March 2005 @ 09:35 am
OMG I <3 Kerry! We were able to go to the movies all thanks to her to see The Jacket. and I must say if you haven't seen that movie... GO NOW! I had the most wonderful time hanging out with people I don't usually get to. There were nine of us at the movies, Sherri, Rachel, Talisa, Manda, Randy, Justin, Kerry, KP, and me. It was absolutely wonderful. After the wonderful movie we went to Denny's where we were accompinied by Todd. So now there were ten of us. I was one of the three people that got coffee, one person (RACHEL) got Lemonade, and everyone else.... DP. So we're sitting there in Denny's and our waiter.... WAS A GUY IN THE MOVIE THEATRE! He was sitting somewhere behind us listening to headphones... I honestly didn't recognize him. I could not breathe... at all. That's how much I was laughing. Then we stole a huge bowl of cream *THANK YOU!* so I continued to have coffee. I also stole Talisa's bacon (Though she doesn't know it). I had a wonderful time and thank you all that came with us. ^.^

When I got home apparently Shane-kitty was still there. Mom's co-worker fell in love with Matty-kitty. And Rose (god I fucking hate her at the moment) decided to take my little Jeffy-kitty and Victoria-kitty to her friend Jessica's house where I have personally witnessed her two little sisters torturing a puppy. Here's the thing. I wanted to give Jeffy-kitty away because he was given to ME! but Rose decides "oh well he's gone now and not to a good home" >.> God I want to kill her. She says that she'll make sure Jeffy-kitty isn't hurt or anything but how the fuck can she do that when she's not even here but in Haltom? It severly pisses me off.
Current Mood: ecstaticecstatic
Current Music: Filth - Dir en Grey
Sometimes life seems too quiet
13 March 2005 @ 12:24 am
well it's like 12:30 and I'm still up... been nearly 48 hours since I slept... I can't close my eyes. All I see is the pain we've caused each other by mistaken words and things I can't take back. Thinking about what happened I have to remember one of Nyk's poems that seem to fit here.

Unrequited Promises
I own my doubt
So insecure
Of what was once there
That I still long for
The slightest touch
To hold her near
And to squeeze her tight
And whisper in her ear
There were certain things
You should never want
I’ve had them all
And it wasn’t enough
I sacrificed what we had
Shit went sour
Love went bad
I was always there for you
All someone did was just show up
Then we were through
But you came back
Again and again
I couldn’t help it
I let you win
I all I know is that I wanted us
To never be apart
All I have, Is your broken heart
This is the way we are
It’s nothing knew
Our same old shit
Thru an thru
All because this promise I made to you:

I love you and I’m sorry
I’ll never stop loving you
Until the day, you are dust in the grave
I will always want you
I promise you are everything
That is inside of me
Your may hurt me
With what you do
But I won’t ever let myself
Stop loving you

There will always be something else
There will always be someone else
I will never be aloud
To have you to myself
I think I’ve wasted time
With all the tears I cry
Because you will never be
Mine and it murders me
But I have always been yours
This is what I cry for
I’ve created myself
Around an image of you
Now I can’t stand my love for you
It will kill me if you’d go
But I’d die either way
If I had you, then I’d have nothing
But If I killed you inside
Where can I let my heart hide?
You are my shelter and the passion inside
It your thoughts that push me forward
And keep me alive
I been through hell, but with you in my heart
Now I face paradise, but to me it’s the devil’s eyes
Because I don’t know what to do
Without you in my life
Once I made a promise and I swear keep it true
If it means I’ll never have you

I love you and I’m sorry
I’ll never stop loving you
Until the day, you are dust in the grave
I will always want you
I promise you are everything
That is inside of me
Your may hurt me
With what you do
But I won’t ever let myself
Stop loving you

I want to die I want to cry
Because my inability to let go
Has once again and finally
Taken control

That is all... no sleep for me
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: strange enough it's silent... except when i type
Sometimes life seems too quiet
12 March 2005 @ 07:10 pm
*sighs* words taken the wrong way leave Reesa-chan broken and upset.

Other things that happened... got some new books, Psy came by and took some of her things as well as Little Lita Kitty. Other than that... I'm just here. *sighs*
Current Mood: melancholymelancholy
Sometimes life seems too quiet
11 March 2005 @ 10:50 am
*giggles insanely* the kittens are scaring Izam and Nanako... both of which are seriously huge compared to the babies.
Current Mood: impressedimpressed
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10 March 2005 @ 03:46 pm
*sighs* I feel like I'm loosing him and there's nothing I can do. Everyday that passes it seems we grow farther and father apart. He's so blind he can't see the pain he causes me and I can't talk to him about it. I think this might help some more in expressing my emotions than how well I usually am.

Unbearable pain slices through me
As I watch you walk out my door
Tedious moments pass by
Before I am myself once more

I break down in the middle of the room
Afraid to even move
No one is able to calm me
Hurt that is impossible to soothe

I sacrificed all I had
To share moments with you
Now all I wonder is
Did you ever love me too?

Sacrificing all I own
I'll follow blindly after you
To find out the answers
All I have to do is find you.

Something's wrong
I can just feel it.
Stirring deep inside me,
The pieces that just don't fit.

What could be happening
To make me feel this way.
Causing me to lose my courage,
As if I had nothing to say.

I'm not always like this.
Something's are just meant to be
But how long can I sit in the darkness,
Not knowing what is happening to me.

The only thing I can describe
Is the pain festering inside me
So powerful my vision blurs
Sometimes where I can hardly see

I hurt so much
That I fear for my sanity
So much pain
When the unknown grabs me
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: Megalodon - Mastodon